Who Am I?

This is a question I’ve been asking a lot lately. I am in a search to discover an identity that cannot be shaken. I want to know what it means to be so captivated by God that it satisfies all other desires. Misty Edwards wrote a song called “Arms Wide Open” that I’ve had on repeat as I’ve been asking God what this love looks like. Part of the song reads:

I once believed that love was romance, just a chance
I even thought that love was for the lucky and the beautiful
I once believed that love was a momentary bliss
But love is more than this
All You ever wanted was my attention
All You ever wanted was love from me
All You ever wanted was my affections, to sit here at Your feet

If anybody’s looking for love in all the wrong places
If you’ve been searching for love, come to Me, come to Me
Take up your cross, deny yourself
Forget your father’s house and run, run with Me
You were made for abandonment, wholeheartedness
You were made for someone greater, someone bigger, so follow Me
And You’ll come alive when you learn to die

Come alive when you learn to die? That not only sounds ridiculous, it sounds painful! But I have learned that when I allow my plans, my desires, my timing to die, God’s love does satisfy. My identity is found when I trust Him.  I can obey God and follow Him without having to trust Him, but I can’t trust God if I don’t die to myself. Trust begins when I give up my will. As Christ said He only did what He saw His Father doing, I want to be about only my Father’s business.

God, my identity is found in you. I busy myself with your plan for my life and I trust you.

“The more you reaffirm who you are in Christ, the more your behavior will begin to reflect your true identity!”
(From Victory Over the Darkness , by Dr. Neil Anderson)